2004年01月09日

イラクにいた米兵のblog

イラクの米兵のblogはいくつか目にしたのだけれど,何ていうか,私が読む意味がなさそうなのが大半。

でもこれだけは違う。

http://turningtables.blogspot.com/2003年10月23日の更新が最後になっている。書いた人は既に米国に戻っているので。

この人はある日,イスラミック・ファンダメンタリストの視点から書かれたblogを読んで大笑いしたという。そしてこう言う。
maybe i only find it humorous because i am a stupid white man...and an american 'zionist' to boot...but it was hard to call the guy ignorant of islam...because he evidently knows his stuff...
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humor is the only thing that has got me through the last few months...if i didn't have that wall i could erect at a moments notice to protect that inner child who is scared shitless...


私がこれまでに読んだ米兵のblogは,「彼ら」を「テロリスト」「きちがい」と呼んでいた。

同僚の兵士がカタールに行き,町へ買い物に出ることを許された(イラクではありえないのだそうだ)時のことも書かれている。
he went to a mall...and walked around with a friend...as he walked past families...parents pulled their children closer...and little kids ran away...they were afraid of him..."i felt like a monster"... *snip* it's a strange trip of fate when a white male is discriminated against..."i felt like i was the terrorist"...


この記述の最後の部分に反感を覚えた人物が会社のアカウントからひどいメールを送った。blogの主はそれを公開した。ところが今度はその会社にメールボムが送られたらしい。そこでblogの主は「やりすぎだ」とblogに書いている。

別の日の出来事。ある日の夜中に音がするので目が覚めると,外で兵士のひとりが叫んでいたそうだ。靴も履かずに様子を見に出てみると,その兵士は叫びながらあっちへこっちへと走っていたという。
and in between every exasperated scream there is a sob...a gut wrenching moan...tear filled...and uncontrolled...
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"this soldiers freaking out"...
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i've never witnessed a total collapse of a human being before...it was intimidating...and scary...the soldier was truly out of any type of control...and i felt like anything could happen...i begin to worry..."does he have a weapon"...


私は「諸君の人間らしさを犠牲にしないでほしいのだ」と書かれた退役軍人の手紙のことを思い出す。

また別の日にはこう書かれている。
but i'm scared still...i fear iraq is about to be thrown back into an internal war...a civil war...they hate each other...and they hate us...we just want every body to wrap up in a nice big group hug..."sorry guys"..."yeah...we're sorry too"...but that's not going to happen...
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i feel for the multinational troops that are going to get called up and sent down here...they definitely don't deserve it...a war they didn't start...but one they will have to end...life is unfair that way...there are no rules...and a lot of people might have to swallow some pride for the betterment of this country...the iraqis are the ones that are important...they are the ones who did not ask for this...and they are the ones that are dying...in colossal amounts compared to our boys and girls in green...my fellow soldiers...we need to do what is best for them...we did 'liberate' them after all...and if i'm not mistakin' that was the reasoning behind this war...


そしてまた別の日。
i'm so baffled...and confused...9-11 changed my life...in every way...and i do think that if we wish to stop such things from happening we do need to step up and take action...we do need to fight these things on their home turf...but i'm not really sure if the people that hijacked those planes...and brought down those buildings even have a home turf...how do you fight an enemy that has no borders...how do you win a war when the enemy can be anyone...any where...at any time...
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it's a 'war on terrorism'...kind of like a 'war on drugs'...and we know how well that one is panning out in america...unwinable...because the more you fight it...the smarter the enemy gets...the more you try to squash terrorists and terrorism...the more martyrs you create...the more troops yo send...the more symbols of rebellion against 'unjust occupiers' you spawn...the longer you 'occupy'...the more people will want to step up and take action...they want a higher meaning...and they want to do what they think is right...i'm terrified of this cycle...and it all seems so simple to me...i wonder why others can't see it...
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americans like to think in terms of we...or i...or us...and them...and those...and you...they don't see both sides of the fight...they only perceive right and wrong...good and evil...america and terrorists...many many arabs think america is evil...and they think along the same terms as those americans...only in reverse...so who is right...who is misguided...is there even such a thing as good and evil...
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i laugh when i hear americans spouting off with what they think the terrorists reasons are for hating america..."they hate our freedoms"..."they hate our religions"..."they hate our capitalism"..."they hate our s.u.v.'s"...i think they hate us because we make them our business...we come to their countries...and we bomb them...they then come to our country and fly planes into sky scrapers...we then send more troops to their countries...and we drop more bombs...i'm not sure who started this cycle...and does it even matter any more...what is important...is how will we end it...and when i say we i mean all of us...everyone...because it is our problem...


そして次の記述を読んだとき,私は猛烈に共感した。戦争なんてあったってなくたって,兵役につこうがつくまいが,この人はこの文をいつか書いただろう。
i've been speaking with people and it seems very strange to me that for all the similarities we have here in this small town all that most of these people see is the differences in ourselves and in others...they almost make me feel like i'm the weird one because i see the similarities first...i'm not sure any more if i'm even in the majority...
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that's how we look at the world...well most of us...we see little "brown guys" running around with scarves wrapped around there heads...yelling in a different language...believing in different ideas...living in distant lands...what we don't see is their lives...their real lives...Their work days...Their families...Their homes...Their cars...Their grocery stores...and dinner tables...the differences are right up in your face...they are easier to spot and point at...


「個性尊重」とか「異文化理解」というものが語られる時,必ず「違っていて当たり前」というのが出てくる。英国について語る文章でも,定番は「違いを認める個人主義」だ。

だけど私は「違い」より「共通点」ということをいろんなことを通じて(何も海外でのあれこれだけではない。日本でだって経験できる)体験的に習得してきた。それぞれ違うのは当たり前。その中に共通点を見つける。「違うこと」を前提に物事を組みたてず,「共通していること」を前提にする。ただし「画一」だの「悪しき平等」だのではなく,「違うこと」は前提にするまでもない,当たり前のことなのだと。

一度英国の人(日本に住んでいたことがある)と話をした時にこういう話題になって,かなり長く話しこんだことがある。無理やり共通点を見つけようとする必要はないけれど,違いしか見ないことは,議論(debateやargument)では定石だとしても,人間としては不自然だ,と。

この時に話をした英国の人が今どうしているのかは私は知らない。
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